It has been 3.5 weeks. What have I done? Well... not a lot. Not the actual work anyway. They will begin next week. Hopefully. Must work harder while morale is higher. My morale is always higher when things begin. There is apprehensive of course. However, future is always brighter when I am dreaming of the potential of this work.
After a few times of problems with plating the proper number of cells (various people suggested various methods), I think I finally got things right. Finally. Some do consider individual cells of multicellular organisms as an organism. I do not. Simply because... well... they are not complete organisms. Besides, if you consider them complete organisms, imagine carrying out "massacre" of tens of millions of cells every day.
In this 3.5th week of Project Final Fantasy, I had three dinners with friends. Just this week, there was the dinner with science research people (Too bad our doctors did not attend) and dinner with secondary school gang. Everyone seems to be doing well relatively speaking. These outings are the calm in this turbulent period of "Battle". I really and acutely felt the calm during science research people outing, while we are around the Helix Bridge area. If I remember, the last time I had a similar feeling was during secondary school CCA chalet.
Truthfully, I am not one to root for prolonged period of calmness in work. Calmness is good. Stability, predictability and a sense of feeling good. Especially if you have already found your significant Other. I think I like challenges. I enjoy competition. It raises my game. I think inevitably, when you mix with strong (or stronger) people, you become stronger over time as well. Also, the kind of euphoria when the dread of failing is banished with unexpectedly good outcome is unbelievable (The lack of people to share this euphoria can be a downer though). Yup. I think the thirst for competition, the craving for euphoria of success and the burning desire to beat a challenge are driving me onwards (and perhaps further away from romance though).
Then again, I think I have become a better loser. More willing to accept responsibility for making mistake, admit mistake and face mistakes. This is essential I think. If I do not face mistakes, then given my highly competitive nature, I will (in the words of a senior) "crash and burn".
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