Post No.: Triple One

There is a fine line between working hard and working stupid.

I think I am more of the latter at the moment.

No Christmas this year

Christmas will probably be spent working. Oh well, this chance to work comes only once while Christmas comes every year. Then again, because of work, I have been neglecting family. Fine. I am not that close to them in the first place. But I am not insensitive to their feelings about my being constantly away.

Results are not good this semester with the lowest grade ever appearing. Of course I am sad. Then again, if I keep getting As, then it means the rest of the cohort are weak and it would be no fun right? This is a reminder of my vulnerability (my "mortality" I would like to say) and a chance to fight rather than defend.

On the social side, it is good that I have not mistook sympathy and empathy with something else. Good job Brain. It seems better to just be around that to be attached to anyone. Yes... It can be kind of "lonely" at times. But hey, I can't have my cake and eat it at the same time.

Forget about festivals

Behind time in work. Need to forget all about festivals. Think only about work.

Got Beaten. Sort of.

Got beaten. An ugly B appeared. Oh well. No question about it. Revenge is on the cards. Looks like the BMS batch iseems to be quite strong. I have to perform at my true level or exceed my level to beat them. Things have just gotten interesting. Not only do I have to beat them, I have to beat myself as well - to grow further and further exceed my limits.

Things have gotten really interesting. Time to put on a real fight. The Final War begins!

Too much Korean drama

I think I watched too much Korean drama in recent times. Of course I do not have the time to catch all of them and only was able to catch certain episodes of certain dramas due to work. Then again, the effect has already manifested itself.

Imagine this: Girl breaks up and is feeling very sad. Guy has positive feelings towards Girl (though not yet the love kind). Guy sees this chance. Guy tries to ask Girl out to try to get Girl out of misery, on the pretext of being friends (or bogus boyfriend etc), but is really hoping to become an item later.

Of course, in dramas, that would probably work out. But this is real life. See? Brain completely gone bonkers for a few minutes. Seniors say can try also. But then I think trying it this way will not work. Attempting such things when someone is down and might not be able to think rationally is a good strategy to start the ball rolling I agree. Question is what happens when the person becomes rational again. Will it last? I do not think so...

People I want to beat

Not physically beating them of course. But surpassing them in terms of results. In fact, to thrash or crush them would be more satisfying. It is not that they have overtly offended me or anything. But somehow, I feel this intrinsic dislike for them. There is no explanation. Just intrinsic dislike. Or was it pride at play?

I will strive to beat them through legitimate means of course (I do not do sabotage). I can sense that they are relatively strong. Then again, it will make beating them much much more satisfying.