Need to start talking more. Recently, when GossipLane begin to discuss relationship problems, I went totally silent. Ok. Fine. Not only that. I was silent at a lot of other discussions.
I supposed I do not have the experience to contribute. So far, I have been focusing on reaching my goals that I overlooked many other things in life. Doesn't help that I have a powerful inner Sloth and Pride and so I tend not to be motivated to try new things for just a reason/purpose unless it is something I am very sure I can do well in. So a number of times, either I do not know what they are talking about or I do not fully understand the experience they had. Bad. I know. Playing catch up now is a major major task.
The other thing is you share a problem big time once or twice, I am fine. That is a way to find solutions. I would like to decide on a solution, execute it, see how it goes. After that once or twice discussion, everything is just a short update. Nothing major until the solution doesn't work. I try not to harp on the same thing too many times. Bores me, bores my friends. Some people apparently think otherwise. Seems like I need to see things differently from now on....
Now. Why I came to write this. I realized that with all the "barriers" that I put up, I know people more than they know me. Take GossipLane for example. I know addresses (where to get them), a bit of relationship history and certain likes and dislikes. They do not know anything about me before the day I met them. Almost nothing, besides the schools I attended and probably CCAs.
Too many barriers? Too many layers of information control? Apparently so. I do not want to reveal too much to "protect" myself. I like it when one of my colleagues say "All humans should be considered hostile unless proven otherwise". Then again, after 2 years, I have seen enough and trust GossipLane enough to let on more.
Let's see how thing "engagement" policy pan out. :)
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