I am supposed to be full of festive mood this season. After all, this is the day the Earth starts another new revolution around the Sun and the new zodiac sign takes its position. Then again, I have absolutely no mood at all. Why? I do not really know. Maybe my mindset has aged 20 years ahead of my actual age. I feel like I am becoming a self-depreciating, yet self-righteous old uncle. Full of contradictions yes?
On the days I am supposed to enjoy the festive goodies and put on smiles when I go visiting, I found myself drowning in self-depreciating thoughts. I think I have BOTH inferiority complex AND superiority complex, depending on the situation. Wonderful! I do not think anyone can be more contradictory than me. Hah! (I apologize for my "not-so-sane"... words.)
Looks like it is true. Festive periods can do strange things to the minds. Good thing there is some paper work to keep me kind of occupied. Finally I get to have some "quality" time with my notes (With a little tinge of underlying sarcasm. But I do appreciate that I finally get some time to go over my notes.) They are the line that keeps me from thinking too far out.
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