Yup. Must be crazy. Trying to compare the incomparable is insane and frankly, just a waste of time (not to mention raising blood pressure and heightening the risk of cardiac infarction and stroke unnecessarily). Furthermore, some one somewhere will be stronger than you and even though you may be stronger in one aspect, others may be strong in another aspect. Therefore, this entire comparing thing is ridiculous. For example, income. Compare someone earning high pay but does not really like his job and some who likes his job but is getting average pay. Who is more successful? The victor and the loser shall depend on your definition of success, for which there is no fixed yardstick to measure.
But somehow, I just cannot stop doing it. Currently, it seems that if I have to define who I am, I would have to use comparisons of achievements (or lack thereof) and work. The endlessly making comparisons must be something inborn I think. Perhaps it is coded in my genome (assuming such characteristics are genetic in nature). These endless comparisons are making me a green monster (envy). I am getting tired of making comparisons because there will never be a true victor. However, competitions (which I have a realistic chance of winning strong rivals) always makes my blood boil with anticipation (I mean it!).
Oh well. In a world where almost everyone only cares about their interests, who turn their backs on the facts (or worse, trying to hide or twist the facts), who ignore the repercussions of their actions, being competitive yet remaining ethical in doing so is the least I can do. Still, I will try to rein in this competitive streak and channel it only for constructive purposes.
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