Loss of Motivation

Yes. Loss of motivation. Usually, by the second week after exams, I should be wanting to do something. But this time, there is actually a resistance to do something constructive -- Like Project Final Fantasy for example. Instead, Brain kept thinking of going out with friends.

Could it be that Brain finally cave in after years of "no-play"? Well.... The previous year has been tough (I am sure it is tougher for my mentor and poor senior). Or is it that my true nature has been revealed --- And I am a slothful, no good person? Every one has an element of sloth. Just that some have more, some have less or at least more capable of keeping sloth in check. I have been keeping sloth in check for years now and will still have to do so for years to come.

Actually, sloth has gotten increasingly powerful in the past couple of years. It is requiring ever more effort to suppress sloth. Of course, I will still do work when there is work to be done (seems like my "good self" is still strong most of the time) but then I started to drag if there is a dateline (I have numerous close shaves with datelines in the past year.) How did this happen is beyond me (Did I used much too much energy in the first two years??). Assignments are getting tougher of course. Also, peers are putting in more effort in their work, leading to stronger competition. Therefore, it takes more time to churn out works that can potentially beat the crowd. However, I would be a fool is ignore the warning calls. Much like how the avian influenza outbreaks are perceived as warning for a future pandemic. Better heed the warning or risk perishing into depths of ignominy and labelled a lazy bum.

There must be a way through the current problem. I have to find this solution. Actually, first is to isolate the root of the problem.