Uncertainties

A lot of uncertainties crept in again....

1. Project Supervisor?
2. Further studies?
3. Gene Chip?
4. Where am I going with my life?
5. How come I cannot think with my head and execute with my hands?


Point 1: It seems almost everyone has started to look for a supervisor. Even if the supervisor is good but mentor is not good, then what is the point? Currently, I have yet to achieve satisfactory ability to work independently. Theoretically, I could... But then things always don't go what I thought it will be...

Point 2: Further studies? Everyone I know seems to assume that I will go on to do further studies. But if I cannot work independently, further studies will only make my life miserable. Then again, I could see it as a way to stretch myself. After all, some do say "If you started out knowing everything, then you could have skipped school." But then, there are those who say "You should be able to do such things at this level". So it is obvious that there is no one truth to such things. Everyone has their own views -- Blindly following them will only lead to doom.

Point 3: Microarray yielded what seniors considered impossible or even ridiculous data. But mentor says it is correct. What to do? On one hand, I trust my mentor. On the other, seniors are not dumb. So how?

Point 4: Financial planning and perhaps.... family planning have not started. Getting old already...

Point 5: This is by far, the most demoralizing part. Ability to think things through, but not the ability to carry experiment to prove them is pathetic for a scientist. My efforts to solve this has yielded dismal results... Perhaps I did not try hard enough?